珍惜

今天，收到一个噩耗-朋友的妹，走了... 

和她，只有片面之缘。去他家时打过几次照面。印象中很可爱，很静。可能不熟的原因吧？只记得有一次，当时她有病，转好出院可以待在家-感觉上还不错，庆幸她的康复。

最近听说她情况不太好，她哥也忙进忙出，告诉我说，已有最坏打算-心酸了。

在想，如果这事发生在自己身上，我会如何反应？真的，不敢想象。。。

可是，人生就是如此。。。所以，学会珍惜当下，珍惜身边的人，事，物，尽量别让自己有遗憾。说真的，我已经错过了很多，是否要追回？或，可追的回？无论如何，只想无憾。可有多少人真正能做的到？当下我想珍惜的人，很多。。。只愿自己能做到。。。

突然，想大声告诉说：我爱你（们）/ 想你（们）。。。**HUGZ~**

惜缘，惜福。

愿你一路走好。。。

Promise

Last few days, consider as kinda in 'holiday' mood.. even friday is a working day.. haha~

Thursday, happy gathering with x-colleague! morning already at shopping center having some window shopping with my ji mui ~ kaka.. again.. she bought more than me... everytime kinda enjoy shopping with her.. but she always 怨 me that end up make her buy a lot, but i didnt~ kaka.. no choice.. i kinda 吝啬.. even is on myself.. hahaha~ but now still miss 1 very nice jacket~~ ><" mayb will go back n buy if got chance? hahaha.. just think not many event or chance can wear that.. so decide not to buy it...

Also, that day is a kinda popular cloth shop new opening there.. ~_~ juz i feel very 夸张 is the queue is very long -.-" im thinking.. is that really a big sale on the new opening.. i didnt go to join the queue as me & my fren think that using the time queue there.. we can at least shop for 3 or 4 more shops there.. lolz

then nite.. eat marathon with x-colleague.. haha.. from the time we met until we left... we went for 3 rounds! dinner - dessert - ice-cream - cup cake~ haha.. really eating non stop.. n having a really nice time with all of them ^^ but i think i did 1 stupid thing... as i forgot to buy bread... so when leave the shopping center.. i saw 1 24 hours convenience store.. so i decided to park somewhere around & go in get the bread... i thought that place kinda 热闹... but i found that i'm wrong.. a lot of foreigners (indo, bangladesh, etc etc) and due to i park not really near also, when i walk thru... they r looking at me with some weird face!! ><" that time im really thinking.. if i kena lou lap how ah~ hahaha.. but lucky i didnt.. just tell myself really NO NEXT TIME.. dont do such a danger thing le.. at least just try to go brighter place or not to be alone to walk those dark alley...

then.. weekend, due to some special reason, my sis elder son come overnite at my house.. here is some conversation when he called home & talk to his younger brother..

弟弟: 哥哥zomok在婆婆家? 我也要去婆婆家, 我要在婆婆家过夜~
*say real.. 1st time we heard he talked whole sentence until so smooth
哥哥: 不可以, 我在婆婆家是因为..... 所以你不能过来, 等我回来
弟弟: 我要去婆婆家睡觉...
婆婆: 好好, 下次到弟弟来婆婆家
conversation continued... n we thought the story should end here? haha.. not really

so next day, i brought the brother back to my sis house.. and like usual... having ma jiong at her house again..   then happen that we asked the 弟弟 once, tonite wanna follow popo home? 弟弟only node his head then continue his playing liao.. actually the brother wanna follow us to home again.. but too tired.. he slept and we decided not to bring him home..then... very weird, 弟弟although tired also do not want to go to bed.. juz keep stick around me & my mum... firstly we thought he just to miss us.. but not really... when we are going home.. suddenly he pulled me to his cupboard and ask me take his nice ben 10 t-shirt, then asked his mum bring his bottle and put in a bag.. then only we found out.. he want follow us home~ not to break the promise.. so we tis time bring 弟弟home..

what we found surprise is.. 弟弟said his promise - follow us to home, not juz like simply say.. for us, as adult, actually nvr really treat it as a matter. but for a 3 yrs old child, he said it, and he comply it. Say real, he nvr been alone come to my house, as he kinda stick his baby sitter and his mother. Sometime think back.. is that adult too easily simply said out something? after promise something.. they might just think, nvm, OR even break it or nvr apply it.. juz a very normal matter. Why start to forget about, promise - is a commitment - not something simply say out, n later we think it as a nothing.

Actually need to 自我反省 also, how many times i said a 'promise', but later forgot about it? A lot... & dunno why.. recently quite ez i can 'promise' something, slip my tongue, but then.. haiz...

So, i should not simply to 'promise', if really do, then i hv to try my best to accomplish it..

These few days...

Actually before come in.. got a lot wanna to write.. but when here.. hehe.. looks like cut it short better~

Last week, very desperate wanna go windows shopping.. but end up didnt.. anyhow.. weekend.. suddenly called up sis and date her for shopping~ haha.. although is went with her 2 children.. but kinda enjoy as they consider kinda OK as will not run here & there themselves ^^ n 2 days i had been 3 shopping center!! XD bought something ~ a pair of shoes n a skirt.. which not cost more than RM 50 ~~ kakaka~ syiok!! & finally i got chance to walk walk a mall that i wanted to walk so long... PXXAXXGM MALL~ 

Due to brother go outstation to attend fren's wedding .. so i will be alone, then sis ask me stayed her house.. and help her younger son to celebrate bday~ very enjoyable to play with tat 2 kids, and sure the baby ^^ but very tired also.. since need to help take k them.. n already sick for few days + period.. although only a small sick - but makes me lost my voice for 2 days, until today still soar throat @@ n thanks mum for the 'dang gui'... cause me this time kinda not really so susah =) at least hv a nice sleep~ no need pain until wake up d ><" 

Luckily did get enough sleep~ just on Sunday Nite.. parents come back from TW by nite flight, then sis quite worry i drove alone.. so company me to go airport.. make it quite late for me to reach home because had to send her home 1st~ Monday work that time kinda blur + headache~ hehe, still~ nite time go watch movie with parents and sleep around 4 hours... then wake up early morning to send my dad to airport.. coz so fast he need to go back to hometown already... gonna miss him as he will only back here again next year Jan... too used to it he will be here for almost every 2 weeks or at least once per mth.. now need wait so long.. feel a bit sad somehow ~ 

Something need to jod down is.. sometime something really need get a right ppl to talk with.. then only you may see thru it or relief.. although the belief is still there, just suddenly walk out from the mist... =) 

But now, wat i think most important for me is.. i need to find out the true me, understand myself more, as i really 'forgot' myself for too long.. sometimes will ask, is that me? Is that really what i wan? etc etc.. if self also cant understand self, how to expect ppl to understand u? (or who k?) hehehe~ n i will always try my best.. to k those i love & around me.. =) n my '热情'.. i really lost it for so long~ make me always no mood to organize or become lazy~~ always give self own reason is, old liao ~ cant really think, lazy to think or handle.. NO! i still very young le~~ right? Haha~ 

Both of them 1st time sit this~ so enjoy eh ^^ 

My nephew bday cake~ very nice ^^

奇怪的一天...?

昨天 - 心情超复杂的... 可能大姨妈又快来了, 脾气很暴躁... 而且也发生了件蛮匪夷所思的事情...

由于心情超复杂的, 就变的特别想喝咖啡~ 结果发现, 我的杯子不见了! 超惊讶的说... 照理由来讲, 平时都只是放在我旁边的一个小桌子... 我的位子又是超偏僻+乱, 应该也没有人会故意过来我这里? 试下往pantry找... 也没看见... 说真的, 弄的我更加... ~_~" 试着寻了两三回... 好吧, 我可爱的杯子正式宣告失踪! 同事还笑说, 有人暗恋我到要把我的杯子偷走... 实在有够无聊的...

那就唯有放弃咯... 喝白开水咯... 去看看... 没水了... 怎么那么.... -.-" 想想没关系, 找人帮忙抬一下就好... 我想当时我的运真的很差... 放水的那个房门钥匙, 竟然不翼而飞!! 找偏该找的, 问遍该问的, 都没着落... 哈哈哈~ 连水都不给我喝喔... 算!

过了不久... 结果还是空空的... 我在想... 公司的人都不用喝水的? 还是都是在等? =.= 结果又去那钥匙... 很神奇的... 那把刚才我找了很久都找不到的东西... 竟然静静的躺在那! ~_~" 就快快去开门叫人搬水咯...

差不多到放工时间... 有点开心... 因为本来以为要OT的才能赶完的东西, 差不多好了~  有点成就感, 呵呵~ 答应了我的insurance agent去听一个talk... 本来想放飞机的, 但看了他给我的那个brochure... 我不敢了><" 因为门票要整百块? that is y he asked me nvr ffk him.. coz he paid it already... 虽然我觉得如果我真的不能来他也没什么所谓.. 只是我过不了我自己那关... 好吧, 反正现在赶到, 就去咯... 听下insurance这个行业是怎么回事也好..

那个talk, 不错下. 那个讲师很风趣, 不会冷场, share了很多东西... 虽然听了后也没让我特别想join, 可不是他的失败, 而我觉得我不是吃这行饭的人? 以后不知道, 但现在, 真的没有那个心... 最起码, 整个talk, 都很有趣, 也很有point~ 而且他是一个蛮有来头的人, 年纪轻轻(好像只有30出头, 7个孩子 @@), 在邻国可是拥有一间顾问公司和一个很大团队的人哦~ Gordon Hoo his name...

听完后, 也蛮晚了... 回到家就把在公司做剩下的东西compile起来, 因为老板明天要那个report... 做下做下大概3点才完成~ @@ 很久没试过那么晚才睡呢~ 结果今早就blur blur去上班咯... 但到公司还是继续忙那个report... 有些东西做不太对, 所以这里改改, 那里在check check 咯... 可也为了它, 我被迫要ffk朋友... 放工后约好要一起去逛街的, 老板不放过我... 要我整理好才可以~ 结果做到差不多8点才离开公司... =="

还有... 从午饭过后, 喉咙突然沙哑了... 以为是公司的virus太强了... 因为今天很多人mc了~ 回头想想... 不是, 应该是昨天不小心吃东西时差点咽到... 伤到喉咙了... 那时还以为会不会就那样死掉叻, 哈哈哈~ *touch wood* 希望我的声音可以快快回来~ 因为下个星期可能去唱k呢~ 哈哈~

Tuesday

今天, 不懂怎么回事.. 突然决定, 如果晚上时间允许, 没太晚off的话, 就一个人去sunway逛逛咯!

结果, 到了差不多放工时间, 同事对我说: 有一间寿司店做会员日, 买一送一! 问我要去吃吗~? 反正本来也是想去走走, 虽然不是sunway, 但还OK, 就答应下来咯~ 把工作赶一赶, 大概7点才离开, 因为同事们先过去了, 也不好意思让他们等太久的.

一餐下来, 也吃的满享受的, 离不开老话题, 同事谈的总是围绕公司里的事吧! 哈哈~ 就当收听些8瓜消息咯... 吃下吃下也满多的, 5个人总共吃了46碟, 虽然我到时他们大概也吃了超过15碟, 自己也和他们share share吃...感觉自己也是吃了不少呢~ 到先在感觉还很饱... 哈哈... 只是又花钱了... ><""

之后就去和同事去逛下电器店... 走走顺便消化一下. 其实本来打算今天要逛书店的, 很强烈感觉要逛... 也不懂为什么... 但是觉得同事应该没什么兴趣, 也就没去了...

驾车回程中, 想了一下, 今天怎么那么想去windows shopping呢? 可能.. 太过压抑的关系? 可能.. 只想出来透透气... 可能... 想试下一个人逛街的感觉? 可能... 只想走走... 太多的可能可能...

突然望向天空... 可能刚下过雨... +上我家外面那条街的街灯没了的关系... 感觉天空特别暗, 特别沉... 有股特别的冲动, 想做一样东西... 但, 需要勇气吧? 就等先聚集勇气了再决定吧!

回到家还有个小插曲: 家里黑漆漆一片, 心想, 弟出门又忘了留一盏灯了... 等下他回来要说说他的. 开门立刻去开灯, 原来错怪人, 是跳电了. 这才发现, 不喜欢黑漆漆的家... 感觉有点... 原来还会有那种感觉? 呵呵... 还是那个软弱的我啊...

周末

很久没试过那么开心, 笑得那么开怀呢~

虽然早上起来头有点痛 - 因为昨晚喝喜酒, 多喝了些红酒. 本来以为有点wink应该蛮好睡的, 结果不知为何反而没睡稳, 差不多每小时醒一次 =_=" 就决定多睡一会咯... 还好不用我上机场去... 呵呵...

错过了早上打羽球, 就去和他们吃午餐咯~ 然后等看戏! 呵呵, 试玩下RE 6... 哇, 比之前的真的复杂很多...  玩法也有很大不同, 感觉比较象left4dead叻... 玩久了会头晕, 属于我最不善长的类型啊, 中枪多过射枪... 但珊的耳机真不是盖的, 好好哦~ 那种音响效果... 非常爽! 可是不能戴久, 耳朵不是很受的料呢...

电影... 很不错! 我个人很喜欢~ 只是情节有点紧凑, 可能要短短2个小时不到的时间要完全呈现当然不太可能咯~ 可就很有feel呢, 尤其如果你玩过那个游戏! 看戏途中也发生了一些有趣的小插曲 - 有人看到一半竟然睡着了! 鼻酣声很响~ 还有就是一幕全场很静, 突然007的音乐跑出来! 本来应该有点恐怖的场景也变的有点搞笑咯~

晚餐~ 吃的很饱很开心~ 玩笑不断, 笑料百出. 好几次笑到差不多飙眼泪, 还差点给布丁咽到! 感觉很热闹, 很开心~ 说说笑笑呆在那里３个多小时, 感觉很轻松, 放松~ 我们也好像很久没试过那样了? 感觉有些东西在变化, 让我们渐渐走远. 可今天, 回来了~ ^^　也看到几个couple相处不错, 很幸福.  为他们高兴呢~

只是肩膀不懂为什么, 很僵硬... 可能是睡不好的关系, 或是最近的压力? 希望可以松下来咯~

Copy & Paste

1．再难也要坚持 ; 
2．再好也要淡泊 ; 
3．再差也要自信 ; 
4．再多也要节省 ;
5、再冷也要热情 。 ♥

做个开心的人 ,
开心到 ,
别人看到你 ,
也会变得开心 __ ♥

人生最痛苦的不是 " 要什么得不到 " , 
而是根本 " 不知道自己要什么 "



记住该记住的，
忘记该忘记的，
改变能改变的，
接受不能改变的。

有时候，
心里会突然冒出，
一种厌倦de情绪，
觉得自己很累很累，
只想放纵自己一回，
希望能痛痛快快，
歇斯底理地疯一次。

心若改变，你的态度跟着改变。
态度改变，你的习惯跟着改变。
习惯改变，你的性格跟着改变。
性格改变，你的人生跟着改变。
-亚伯拉罕。马斯洛-

把脾气拿出来-是本能。
把脾气压回去-才叫本事！

收敛自己的脾气，
偶尔要可以沉默，
因为冲动会做下，
让自己无法挽回的事情。

笑一笑，对自己说没有什么事情是解决不了的~